I saw King Arthur today. Personally, I thought it was fabulous. Not because I believe it is historically accurate, though it is certainly the closest thing to the truth I have witnessed yet, but because of the message it depicts. Arthur and his knights were people. Simple men who rose above what was expected of them. Men and women (Guinevere to be exact) that fought on behalf of those that couldn’t. They showed their strength of character and strength of spirit. I think that’s pretty fucking cool.

And yes, I intentionally put "fucking" in there because, honestly, I felt it was appropriate.

That is the kind of person I want to be. I want to have that sort of fortitude that I can do what needs to be done. But how does one reach that? How do you give up what you hold most dear to fight for something bigger than yourself? How do you recognize the need? In hindsight it is always so obvious what should have been done. How I should have acted, but how do I make the decision I need to when I need to?

There is no answer to this question. I realize that but it does not stop me from asking it. It is my belief that, if I am aware of the challenges ahead of me, hopefully I will recognize them when they come my way. And, if I recognize them, hopefully I can meet them in the manner I wish.
I’m not a particularly strong person. I’m not anyone special persay, or deserving of recognition in the history books. We all may be the stars of our own lives, but I recognize my life is only a supporting actor to others. I’m okay with that; I accept it. By accepting it I gain power over it and can help those around me as best I can. But remembered or not I want to die knowing I fought for something greater. I do not know if my battles will be fought physically or verbally—there is no way to tell. But I do know this, no one controls who I want to be. No one decides what I can and can’t do. I have the power to grant or deny myself happiness.

I can’t say I will never fail those I love. I have in the past and, invariably, I will sometime in the future. But, I can say I will always try to make it better. If it is in my power I will do it. If it means my life so be it. I am the master of my fate and there is no reason not to achieve what I desire.

Why live if you’re scared of tomorrow? Why live if you don’t want to change?

None of us is perfect so how can we resign ourselves to stay the same person forever?

Don’t you want to be better than you are and do better than you have done?

Go out and do it. You can give the world excuses why you aren’t, but you know better.
 
Don’t live a half-life. You don’t know if you’re going to get another one.